Suai-ness

i think i had jinxed 2 of my computers=(
i dunno y is it always happening to me…
haiz…

another 52 more days to end of 2009…
how have been 2009 for u guys???
good???bad???
to me most of the days were pretty bad..suai…sad…
juz want to get over with 2009 faster…
i m really awaiting for 2010 to come…
a new year a better year…

getting my pay in another 5 more days…
things to get…
get my hair done…
get present for friend…
settle some debts…
save the rest…

hope i can get to go overseas in dec…
juz a short trip will do…

i noe my blog has been dull…
will post pics soon…
juz give me some more time…
but i dun think anyone reads my blog though…

 

i m missing my boy badly~~~

obstcales???tests???

too many things happening within a week…
i dunno if i can pull through it anymore…
someone plz save me…
someone plz save us…
i noe neither of us is liking dis period of time…
i noe both of us r a little tired…

it feel as though i m being drown again n again…
before i could come up to the surface…
another wave came crushing down on me again…

god plz save us…
we been through many things tgt..
be it the happy times…the sad times…
plz dun give up on me…
plz dun give up on urself…
plz dun give up on us…

i cant take it anymore…
i dunno who i can turn in too…
i dunno how long more i can survive…
but i noe i will i m not giving up…

hurt

u claim u noe wats best for me…
u claim u noe me the best…
but in acutal fact u noe nuts….
it was again hurtful with the words tat came out from ur mouth…
u never understood me…
never once!!!

its juz u n ur rules…
u juz cant let go do u…
wat century r u living now???
plz look around u…

i m sick n tired of everything…
juz how i wish i can move out soooo soon…
really…
no one can ever imagine tat…

wishing

wishing everything can go back to the way it was
wishing everything can be normal
wishing i can stop time
wishing my boy is here
wishing i can see my boy everyday
wishing i got enough money to spend
wishing…..wishing……wishing…..

disappointment

juz when i thought the whole bad luck thing is gone
is back again…

juz really disappointed n all…
when i thought i can already finalise with stuff
things cropped up again…
i guess i m juz not fated afterall…
juz hope god will hear me out…

i m really sorry boy…
sorry for making u in a difficult position…
sorry

shopping spree needed!!!!

i need a shopping spree!!!!
dun have clothes to wear for work
dun have clothes to wear to go out
i need a shopping spree!!!!

its all the same

i thought things will be diff ever since starting of work…
but i guess its the same…
being forgotten n stuff…

on the verge to tears…

work

started work on monday…acutally its training…
met new friends=)
go through old n new stuffs…more a bit like recap of everything…
will start to mend the line ALONE next month…
kind of scared….

n i FINALLY GOT MY OWN DESK!!!!OWN SPACE!!!!
haha…

ever since started work on mon…
i miss my boy a lot!!!
dun spend as much time as before…
dun see him as much as before…
I MISS HIM!!!!

feeling apologetic

sorry…
sorry tat i m the one missing out everything…
sorry tat i m the one not making effort to meet…
sorry tat i cant join u guys recently…
sorry…

 

i m missing all the outings with u guys…
juz tat i m financially unstable…
some may think i m giving excuses…
but i really do have…

 

sorry…

stop thinking

as usual…
thinking too much lately…
boy say i have too much free time tats y i have time to think so much…

juz glad i have my boy to be always there for me…
juz feel so lonely at times…
feel like i m all alone…
hopefully when i start work all these worries will juz go away…

my aims when i start work:
1)work hard to save up 10 thousand bucks 1 year time
2)study hard
3)travel once a year

another 6 more days to spend some time with myself
another 6 more days to keep myself busy
another 6 more days…