10 years ago, 2000, it was my granddad.
2010, it was my grandma….

12th feb
sis : ah ma not feeling well papa told me…

13th feb (new year eve)
morning
dad : ah ma might not go through new year
late afternoon
telephone rang, mum : ah ma pass away already…

those 3 words hit me hard
rushed down to my grandma house
reached there…
she was lying down peacefully on the bed…
mum started to cry really hard…
tears juz flow out from my eyes…
all the adults were preparing the funeral…
the young ones sat down solemnly…

14thfeb
funeral was settle at a field near my house…
everything was set up…
in the noon time…grandma’s body came, all cleaned up all dressed up…
everyone’s eyes swell up with tears…
and it was time to put her body in the coffin…
walked a few rounds the coffin, looked at our dearest grandma before the coffin is closed up…
it was really sad to think that it was our last time looking at our dearest grandma and mum…
at the point of time…the atmosphere the emotions was really lost really sad…
den….the lid was sealed was closed…..
it was one of the toughest moment we all had…

15thfeb to 17thfeb
as it was the new year week…every little came…
but once the newspaper we out during the week…
flowers and blanket came…
all cousins took turns to stayed back at night to “shou ye”

18thfeb(last night of the funeral)
my uncle (mum’s sister’s husband) did a video with videos taken in the past with grandma…another video with all pics of my grandma n us…
n it was shown throughout the day with people came…
it was the last night that we could accompany our grandma…

19thfeb(day of burial)
ritual started in the morning…
everyone, at the wake, was sad n solmen…
after the ritual ended…it was time for everyone to say their last words to our grandma n mum…it was really hard for everyone…especially our mums and dads…
and then, the time came for the coffin to be brought to the van…
tears came out from everyone’s eyes immediately…
tears flowed non stop from our eyes as we had our last walk with our grandma…
the walk was the longest walk i had for many years ever since i moved over to my house…my emotion my feeling was really unexplainable…no word…no word can express how i felt….
after walking a stretch…everyone board on a bus and went to choa chu kang cemetary for the burial..
everyone was really quiet during the journey…it was juz the toughest day everyone had…
once reached…after a simple ritual…grandma was buried…and i thought ” there was it”…
after the burial went over to one more place before hte whole thing ends…
it was juz the most tired and toughest day everyone had…
everyone was tired…all went home n rest…

everyone was already prepared once we heard that she wasnt feeling well…
grandma’s health wasnt good ever since granddad passed away…
but detoriate quickly in the later years…
we saved her life many times…
but this time…everyone thought it was time not to let grandma suffer any further…
we acutally had a moblie doctor to look at grandma’s condition…
we thought she at least could pass through the holiday…
it hard on everyone when our grandma stopped breathing…
maybe my grandma was tired and she want to join our granddad for time year’s new year…
my aunt said…my grandma was really clever to choose the new year eve to end…she wants everyone to rmb her , wants everyone to get tgt for every year new year…its really true…

its really the most memorable chinese new year…
n its the most memorable day in 2010…

today juz only three day after the burial is juz feel so surreal…
i still feel she still present…still alive…but…
grandma and grandma will always present n alive in our heart in our memory….

I LOVE YOU GRANDMA!!!

(collarge done by me n my uncle)

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