nothing much happen…
change job n got a new job…

will blog more with pics soon….

for the time being take care pple!!!!

k…on a side note…i made a big decision…i decidied to quit the current job n get another job (found one already)…ilove my colleagues but i juz tat the job is really not my cup of tea…but i m really happy tat i tried out dis job…is a “total not me” job…but i had thought through tat after i graduate i might consider going back there to work but in a diff  dept…i m relaly grateful tat i had a great supervisor/mentor..she really taught me a lot for the past 7 mths…shall find a “thank you” gift for her…

btw…exams r like in a week time!!!!!ahhhhhhh!!!!!freaking scared!!!!!!its been half a yr since i tool exams…will be studying with boy during my VL n with my friend….my goal dis time…get good grades!!!!

on the other hand…..cant wait for the langkawi trip with my 2 sweetest colleagues!!!!!!faster come~~~

i want to go BKK!!!!!

12th feb
sis : ah ma not feeling well papa told me…

13th feb (new year eve)
morning
dad : ah ma might not go through new year
late afternoon
telephone rang, mum : ah ma pass away already…

those 3 words hit me hard
rushed down to my grandma house
reached there…
she was lying down peacefully on the bed…
mum started to cry really hard…
tears juz flow out from my eyes…
all the adults were preparing the funeral…
the young ones sat down solemnly…

14thfeb
funeral was settle at a field near my house…
everything was set up…
in the noon time…grandma’s body came, all cleaned up all dressed up…
everyone’s eyes swell up with tears…
and it was time to put her body in the coffin…
walked a few rounds the coffin, looked at our dearest grandma before the coffin is closed up…
it was really sad to think that it was our last time looking at our dearest grandma and mum…
at the point of time…the atmosphere the emotions was really lost really sad…
den….the lid was sealed was closed…..
it was one of the toughest moment we all had…

15thfeb to 17thfeb
as it was the new year week…every little came…
but once the newspaper we out during the week…
flowers and blanket came…
all cousins took turns to stayed back at night to “shou ye”

18thfeb(last night of the funeral)
my uncle (mum’s sister’s husband) did a video with videos taken in the past with grandma…another video with all pics of my grandma n us…
n it was shown throughout the day with people came…
it was the last night that we could accompany our grandma…

19thfeb(day of burial)
ritual started in the morning…
everyone, at the wake, was sad n solmen…
after the ritual ended…it was time for everyone to say their last words to our grandma n mum…it was really hard for everyone…especially our mums and dads…
and then, the time came for the coffin to be brought to the van…
tears came out from everyone’s eyes immediately…
tears flowed non stop from our eyes as we had our last walk with our grandma…
the walk was the longest walk i had for many years ever since i moved over to my house…my emotion my feeling was really unexplainable…no word…no word can express how i felt….
after walking a stretch…everyone board on a bus and went to choa chu kang cemetary for the burial..
everyone was really quiet during the journey…it was juz the toughest day everyone had…
once reached…after a simple ritual…grandma was buried…and i thought ” there was it”…
after the burial went over to one more place before hte whole thing ends…
it was juz the most tired and toughest day everyone had…
everyone was tired…all went home n rest…

everyone was already prepared once we heard that she wasnt feeling well…
grandma’s health wasnt good ever since granddad passed away…
but detoriate quickly in the later years…
we saved her life many times…
but this time…everyone thought it was time not to let grandma suffer any further…
we acutally had a moblie doctor to look at grandma’s condition…
we thought she at least could pass through the holiday…
it hard on everyone when our grandma stopped breathing…
maybe my grandma was tired and she want to join our granddad for time year’s new year…
my aunt said…my grandma was really clever to choose the new year eve to end…she wants everyone to rmb her , wants everyone to get tgt for every year new year…its really true…

its really the most memorable chinese new year…
n its the most memorable day in 2010…

today juz only three day after the burial is juz feel so surreal…
i still feel she still present…still alive…but…
grandma and grandma will always present n alive in our heart in our memory….

I LOVE YOU GRANDMA!!!

(collarge done by me n my uncle)

anyone???

sch starts…getting busy very soon with projects…tests and exams…
and soon…PEAK PERIOD for my work place!!!!!

2010, so far has been great…
juz hope tat it will continue like tat with more funs…
wat i cant wait for is the upcoming (not really upcoming) overseas trip with my family~~~RUSSIA!!!!!
but tat will only happen i think in august/sept…hope it will happen~~~~

boy tender his current job…starts sch…
hopes its better for us like tat…
spend more time tgt=)

ok…i always say i will post pics…
i m really lazy to post…coz it takes freaking long to upload the pics…
but i will post pics sooner or later…if not can look at my FB=)

take care peeps n ENJOY UR WEEKENDS=)
another 5 more mins n end of my work…n 2 more hours to class..n 5 more hours to meet SLACKERS!!!!

cant wait for 2010 to come…
really hope 2010 will be better for me…

dunno wats happening to us…
feeling damn sad…
i dunno if to tell u my worries…
i noe u r tired…i dun want to add on to ur worries…
but….
u noe i really love u…
u noe i really miss u…
u noe i really cant live without u….
i love u….

had finish watching this korean drama called 是美男啊
n having drama withdrawal syndrome!!!!
coz i din expect dis drama to end sooo fast!!!!
i love all the actors n actresses in this show…
especially the 2 main leads!!!!
plus all of their soundtrack r really good!!!!!
someone tell me where i can find the soundtrack….

life has been great…
lots of activities…
company’s team building…outings with colleagues…n many more….
schools gonna start next yr…
going to go sch with my boy next yr…
hopefully we have same day of class…
can meet more oftenly!!!!

finally…
I LOVE MY BOY!!!!!

another 52 more days to end of 2009…
how have been 2009 for u guys???
good???bad???
to me most of the days were pretty bad..suai…sad…
juz want to get over with 2009 faster…
i m really awaiting for 2010 to come…
a new year a better year…

getting my pay in another 5 more days…
things to get…
get my hair done…
get present for friend…
settle some debts…
save the rest…

hope i can get to go overseas in dec…
juz a short trip will do…

i noe my blog has been dull…
will post pics soon…
juz give me some more time…
but i dun think anyone reads my blog though…

i m missing my boy badly~~~

it feel as though i m being drown again n again…
before i could come up to the surface…
another wave came crushing down on me again…

god plz save us…
we been through many things tgt..
be it the happy times…the sad times…
plz dun give up on me…
plz dun give up on urself…
plz dun give up on us…

i cant take it anymore…
i dunno who i can turn in too…
i dunno how long more i can survive…
but i noe i will i m not giving up…